Love vs Lust

“Then again, if this ain’t love, I don’t know what love is.”

Sex does not always equate to love.
You try to convince yourself but you know damn well that it's not love.

Good day!

Great Wall of China, Beijing

Every single day is another chance to start over.

The End.

You know it!

You just choose to be stupid most of the time. 

Ho Chi Minh on Film

Few  photos I can share from our Vietnam trip last June. 1 week away from the city is just what we needed. Non-stop eating, shopping, walking, picture taking, talking. Yes, we did talk a lot. We stayed at the beach for 1 full day not to swim but to eat, nap, cuddle, sing and talk. Funny because we only swam for an hour, I think. 

Saigon is a fun city. We'll be back to explore Hanoi and Cambodia for sure.

 Notre Dame Basilica

Sunday english mass early in the morning.

Train ride to Nha Trang

Nha Trang beach shoreline.

Fun day under the sun.

TOO LATE FOR YESTERDAY

Do you ever feel alone? I’ve been alone in that same period
I just don’t see how all of this could do both of us good

Was it something that I did? I sometimes get tired of your excuses
When I thought that what we had was something that’s true

Show me a sign? Lie if you have to
How long will it take to make up your mind?
Or is too late to bring back yesterday?
Our yesterday

Why do I still feel alone even at times when we’re together?
And this isn’t something that a few of your kisses could heal

Must I always be compared? Is there a chance we could start over?
Is there a chance that we could give what we have one more try?

Tattoo # 2

Artist; Max Tandoy

September 2012

Makati City, PH

You can never lose what you never had....

Falling in love was never easy. It gets complicated if you don’t know what to do about it. Even worse if you find yourself stuck in this wonderful feeling and you have no idea what the other person feels for you or you knew that s/he may never love you back. This is from a good friend who’s been in this horrible situation. I know you’re just holding on to the thought of it because it’s wonderful. It’s okay! Your time to let go will come, just wait for it. You’ll know when it’s time.

"Here I come again, making another post about the so called greatest feeling in this world—LOVE. After expunging out all my views about this topic barely 2 years ago, I found myself in the middle of this shit again.

This is one of the mornings after another sleepless night that I cannot help not to ask myself, why didn’t I have a goodnight sleep again? Maybe it’s because I’ve been thinking about a lot of things lately, or maybe at the back of my mind, there’s this wishful thought that someone might be thinking about me. I would joke myself about it several times and I would sometimes push myself to believe that jokes are always half-meant. Behind that joke, there’s this thought of someone that would again bounce in my head and disturb my sanity and make my day half-miserable.

For the nth time, I’ve told myself that he was just too nice and there’s no sense of thinking that there will be any possibility between the two of us to happen. It’s time to move on and face the reality. I came across this movie, How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days and Kate Hudson’s line saying “ I can never lose what I never had” never fails to struck me. It’s not 10 days in my case, but I definitely lost him. Reality bites and it even swallows me with the fact that he took me in a fantasy world where no real action exists, no real emotions surfaced. It’s not easy to be locked in a chain of false hopes and leads you to befriend with Cinderella and Snow White waiting for our Prince Charming to come along. How pathetic, but it happened to me several times, history is repeating itself over and over again…

I have thought about this a thousand times before and I have cautioned myself over and over again that I have stopped counting already. The hardest part of it is to accept the fact that he will never give me the attention I long for because it is for somebody else in the first place. Inasmuch as I would like to erase him from my mind, I CANNOT- or should I say I don’t want to?? Whatever the reason, I cannot bring him back. I am not sure about my feelings for him, and I know that I cannot have the best of both worlds. Much as I immensely enjoyed his company before, I think I should momentarily stop this stupidity because I am bound to get hurt and I think this the right time to make an end to it all. More often than not, the conversations we’ve had, the bottle of beers we shared, and even the arguments and make-up we had still lingers in my mind and makes me long for something I cannot have and someone who cannot be mine. It hurts to admit that I am just pretending.

All the while, I already knew the truth but I chose to ignore it. All along I was struggling this feeling towards him. I was so confused, this is from the very start wrong but I didn’t know what was right anymore. I did not want things to take different turns, I was happy then with the way we were, contented and satisfied.But too late that I realized that the heart will never learned its lesson once it tasted bliss. No matter how momentary it was, it couldn't be stopped. All the more it would reach for something beyond what was at hand. No measure of rationality would prevent it from beating, despite the foreseen pain, the inevitable frustrations and coming sleepless nights.I cannot merely stay the same, stall life with indecision. To wait for things to happen makes too little sense. And as what I’ve heard from my dear friend last night, “Life just has to move on.” I know it would be very difficult because memories will always have a way of keeping me trapped in the past, miserable in the present and hopeless in the future."

--- Anonymous

Break-Up Aftermath

They say time is a great healer, but in the moments after a painful break up it seems to be your worst enemy, moving painfully slowly as each second pierces your heart with a thousand arrows. Moving on after a break-up, in many ways, is the toughest thing to do. It is not just about getting over a relationship, but also about picking up the pieces of your life and making a fresh start. After a break-up, it is common to experience a cycle of undeniable emotions.

Denial
Some events can be so excruciating that denial is the first emotion you face. At the time you may think that all that is happening is just a small hiccup, that the break-up will not last, and that it is only matter of time until you are back together again. This is a particularly painful stage as places, people, and even small things can bring back memories of your time together. What you do need to remember is that is all there is left - memories. What's over is gone and now it is time to look forward and move on to the next phase of your life.

Anger and Irritation
You can't believe you wasted so much time and effort on a partner who didn't appreciate you. You are angry with yourself, your ex, and the world in general. You promise yourself never to let anyone hurt your emotions in the way they are hurting right now. You build a wall around yourself and curse yourself for not being able to see the signs that led to the break up. You blame other people so that you can feel good but that’s not going to help either. You need to acknowledge how you feel and start forgiving yourself. You are responsible for yourself, not your ex nor your family and friends.

Sadness
Your self-esteem takes a beating after you've been dumped. Someone who validated your presence has actually turned around and told you that he doesn't care about you anymore, let alone love you. It is a bitter pill to swallow, but what you should remember is: if someone leaves you for someone else - it is not your fault. Just because in a library filled with classics, someone chooses Dostoevsky over Hemmingway, doesn't make Hemmingway a bad writer. Some people are just not meant to be together. You have to accept that.

Moving On

So you think you are over your ex, but how do you really know that you are ready to move on? It is the simple things, like when you meet an attractive person and do not compare the person in front of you to your ex. Depending upon how bad the break-up, it will take weeks and sometimes months or years to get over the feelings of pain, betrayal, and loneliness. Even if you see or hear something that brings back memories, it is okay. Don't take it as a sign that you aren't ready to meet new people. Accept your relationship as a learning tool and cherish the precious memories you had. The important thing is that you resolve all the anger, pain, insecurity, and intimacy issues that you may have before you move on because you really don't want to carry a ton of emotional baggage on your next date or relationship.

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Karma

Insecurity

People always leave.

 

You cannot blame other people if they leave you.
It is your responsibility to give them all the reasons to stay.
If people always leave you, you might want to pause, reflect and think.

Seriously, there is something wrong with you.